So, my cat of 16 years needs to be put to sleep. I haven’t gotten official word from the vet yet (I’m planning to take her in tomorrow), but I know that’s what’s going to happen.
She’s old, has a tumor over her eye, hasn’t been eating or drinking, she’s peeing/pooping wherever, hiding a lot… Basically, she’s waiting to die.
It’s really, really hard. I’m a bit of a mess about it. On one hand, I know that putting her to sleep is absolutely the best thing for her. She’s miserable. On the other hand, selfishly, I want her to die on her own so I don’t have to be the one to take her in.
Any suggestions on how to comfort myself about this would be appreciated. I know I shouldn’t soothe myself with food, but I predict a pint of ice cream will be consumed tomorrow night. Also, the box of Girl Scout cookies probably won’t make it more than a few days. I’m going to try my best to not curl up in a ball and cry because I’ve done enough crying and it doesn’t do anyone any good.
I think I should go clean the bathtub so I can take a bath tomorrow. Baths are a good soothing comforting thing, right?
In happier/different news, I think I’m going to do a little appearance experiment soon. Should be interesting to see the outcome.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Goodies!
I received the most awesome box of goodies yesterday! I can’t wait to try it all (I had a Blueberry Raw Crunch bar this morning) and post the great pictures.
Thanks Nikes and Ponytails!
Thanks Nikes and Ponytails!
Friday, February 5, 2010
"You look nice!"
Here’s the deal… Most days I have the following “look”:
Jeans, shirt, hoodie, tennis shoes, hair in a ponytail
Today, I’m wearing my hair down, I have earrings on, and I’m wearing a sweater (oh, I also put on a little make-up).
I’ve so far received at least 5 compliments at work. I didn’t make it 10 feet in the door before someone said “Oh, new hair. Looks good!” (By the way, it’s not new hair… same style as it has been for years, just happens to be down today) I’ve also received a “Do you have a big date tonight?” (Nope! I have plans to go grocery shopping and do laundry, does that count?) and “You look really nice!” (Well, thanks!)
Maybe I should be putting a bit more effort in my day to day appearance. But, honestly, most of the time, I just don’t feel like it. It is SO easy to throw my hair in a ponytail. If I put my hair up, then I don’t feel the need for make-up or jewelry. BUT, if I wear my hair down (which only take about 5-10 minutes longer to do than putting in a ponytail), then I feel like I should put make-up and jewelry on (another 5 or so minutes - I do a pretty easy "face.").
I sometimes wish I had “wash and wear” hair so I could have a better day to day appearance without any extra work.
The bottom line, though, even if I had “wash and wear” hair, I’d probably still pull it up. A) I’m sort of lazy in the mornings B) I have to wear it up for dance 3 days a week anyway and C) I sort of like the rare days when I “dress-up” (imagine if I really dressed up and wore a skirt or something!) and I receive compliments.
(I feel this post would have more impact if you had pictures… Maybe I will edit and add some later tonight!)
Jeans, shirt, hoodie, tennis shoes, hair in a ponytail
Today, I’m wearing my hair down, I have earrings on, and I’m wearing a sweater (oh, I also put on a little make-up).
I’ve so far received at least 5 compliments at work. I didn’t make it 10 feet in the door before someone said “Oh, new hair. Looks good!” (By the way, it’s not new hair… same style as it has been for years, just happens to be down today) I’ve also received a “Do you have a big date tonight?” (Nope! I have plans to go grocery shopping and do laundry, does that count?) and “You look really nice!” (Well, thanks!)
Maybe I should be putting a bit more effort in my day to day appearance. But, honestly, most of the time, I just don’t feel like it. It is SO easy to throw my hair in a ponytail. If I put my hair up, then I don’t feel the need for make-up or jewelry. BUT, if I wear my hair down (which only take about 5-10 minutes longer to do than putting in a ponytail), then I feel like I should put make-up and jewelry on (another 5 or so minutes - I do a pretty easy "face.").
I sometimes wish I had “wash and wear” hair so I could have a better day to day appearance without any extra work.
The bottom line, though, even if I had “wash and wear” hair, I’d probably still pull it up. A) I’m sort of lazy in the mornings B) I have to wear it up for dance 3 days a week anyway and C) I sort of like the rare days when I “dress-up” (imagine if I really dressed up and wore a skirt or something!) and I receive compliments.
(I feel this post would have more impact if you had pictures… Maybe I will edit and add some later tonight!)
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